After reading these books, there is no turning back. I just put down Mediocre, and the conclusion perfectly summed up this quest I have been on. I get where much of my anxiety comes from and it reaffirms the importance of the work I am doing to reverse the programming I had growing up. Bunk, White Trash, and Educated were very important primers for me. These books mapped to my experience growing up and provided me with the perspective I needed to want to learn more. Then I feel like Stamped from the Beginning, Evicted, and Angela Davis really provided me with the racial lens I needed to keep unpacking my shit, and keep seeking oiut even more diverse voices. But, Mediocre really brought it all home for me this weekend, and provided me with the answers I’ve been seeking.
Of course, this journey will never end. Like I said, there is no turning back. I have to keep reading and filling my head with other voices now. THe gravity has shifted for me and I can never step away from the richness of listening to more diverse voices. Sitting here in 2022, having read all these books, I can really see how dependent power is in this nation is counting on people being ignorant, uneducated, and believing in racial, religious, and class boundaries. I can also see just how foundational white supremacy is to the founding, expansion, and current state of this nation. Knowing more is terrifying, but not nearly as terrifying for me as isolation, ignorance, and continuing to live in a very white-washed reality. I just can’t do it anymore. These books are foundational for helping me in my journey over the last seven years, and without them I’d be much more lost, angry, and without hope.